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why am i even applying for transfer?

i am sitting in the computer lab on a sunday night, alone. just submitted another school.

i feel as if i’ve lost all my motivation to transfer, yet, this is the hardest i’ve work in quite a long long long time.

maybe i’m just trying to keep myself busy. i don’t even know. two more schools, and then my resume, and then my cover letter, and then find a part time job.

something’s motivating me to apply, to keep working,  to keep myself busy,  to keep doing everything, to just keep working and working and working. but i find no legit reason to do so. so why am i doing these things? it’s so confusing.  i am so confused

i feel as though there’s no reason for anything, but i just have to keep going, to keep doing.

this sucks.

and my time isn’t even correct on wordpress. you are right; this is turning into my place to vent  

so, i was thinking, if i just keep rambling and rambling and rambling on wordpress…and then what, roll~~~~~~ off the bed? its 11:00pm and i haven’t done anything. i can’t believe i’m still on this site  for the record, i finally wrote a sentence.